now dont go talkin amongst yourselves and spreading rumors and all that. all you need to know is RIGHT HERE!!! now pay attention:

do i hold any hostility or anything against deon nem? NOOOO i do not! i never did! never! i have just set certain standards for myself as far as how i choose to let people treat me. months ago i wouldn't have tripped, but i would've been bothered by it, and i dont want to have to go through that...thinking that i've allowed myself to be disrespected again when i didn't have to. i also understand that deon has his own way of thinking and his own way that he does things. do i think deon is a bad person? naw. but i was a lil shocked and pissed in the beginning and i felt disrespected...royally...and in trying to explain why i felt the way i did i felt like i wasnt even being heard, which in my eyes is also disrespectful. not only that, i was also being attacked by outside parties who had NO BUSINESS talking in the first damn place. not only that, but just generally talking shit to other people and around the way like i wasn't gonna know, but that's neither here nor there.

in my opinion, that's how it was and i simply cannot associate myself with anyone or anything when im feelin disrespected, period. which is ALSO why i reacted the way i did with dude with the high yellow shirt. we were just playing around with dude...he disrespected us, and i wasn't gonna stand quiet, that's all.

now, im also not telling yall to never get on hoodstars again. despite what yall are thinking, that was not my intent. now i STILL have the same mindframe...i felt like you all were disrespected and none of you should stand for that, and none of my feelings have changed because i feel like women in general sometimes ALLOW so many things over others. like my 'no dick in `08' jumpoff, for example. how im always saying how women let certain qualities about a man influence whether or not she's with him and ignore the HUGE signs that say 'stay AWAY from this nigga!' yall heard me say over and over that my whole movement was not just about sex...but in just the way we respect ourselves in general, and just because i stopped hollering 'no dick in `08' didn't mean i wasn't still standing by it...i just felt like my point was made and i didn't have to scream it out anymore, but to simply follow it.

at the same time, however, i didn't want to sound like i was trying to change ya'll religions or something lol. i was just trying to encourage everybody to think about that shit and demand MORE of yourself and how other people treat you, because when you dont respect yourselves you usually end up getting fucked in the long run. its happened to me a bunch of times, so i know. all i said to you all was 'the owner of hoodstars just called all of you out of your name...if yall still want to sit on this site and support this nigga it's on yall, but it's not gonna be me.' now i admit that when people were telling me that some of you were still in there i was sayin sumthin like 'omg and some of yall are still there,' but it was because i was disappointed...not because i was trying to get you all to leave.

so with that said, i was never trying to influence you guys, but i was trying to get you to think about something you never thought about before...this whole time. you all have your own minds. you all do not have to stop coming here because i said so or asia said so. (and we never said that, but you all get it lol.) ya'll dont even have to speak with me if yall dont want to. i love yall, but yall are yall own people, and im not gonna hate anyone for doing whatever the fuck they wanna do so...ya'll do yall thing lol.

as for me, that's where i stand so...lol i gotta be done. im not GONE, however, so you all can add me on xanga if you would like:

http://www.xanga.com/LilEssence03

i have friend's lock and sign in lock enabled because, as i've said, i cant stand the crazy and the disrespectful, so on my personal page i gotta filter them out lol. i add everybody, but if you turn out crazy, you get deleted off the friend's list lol.

alrighty so that's all i wanted to say...to those of you all that are still confused about shit and watnot. you can say whatever you want to say about me because of this, but i really could care less my shoulders have been brushed off many many times since i first got on hoodstars, it aint nuthin to keep on brushin em off like Obama lol. this is how i feel, period. nobody can steal my joy or change me. not anymore, not at all. so anyone who disagrees can talk shit about me in these comments, or you can hide and do it in the chatrooms or amongst yourselves thinking i'll never know about it, or you can get on cam and talk shit about me and block me thinking i'll never know you said shit about me...either way it dont matter, cuz whether i hear it, hear about it or not at all i am officially unfazed.

ultimately, i hope that everybody respects what im sayin, regardless of whether you like it or agree with it or wateva. im not for the drama, i just wanted to put my thoughts out there, because people were wondering.

im going to give this blog a lil time to 'marinate' lol and then i'm getting rid of the page...just to give yall time to find it and apply it and add me on xanga if yall want to. and to give myself time to transfer my blogs...cuz i like my blogs lol. no later than new years...i guess.

AND...last but not least, through it ALL there is one thing that will always make sense to me. always unchanging, always awesome:

omari on is the shit.

:o)

there are also people who have these opinions about the registering and voting processes and how they work. a lot of people think that the whole thing is a looong, drawn-out, complicated process when it's SO not. as a matter of fact, i was one of those people. i thought that in order to register you had to go to some special registration place and stand in line for 3 hours and fill out all this dumb information like i was filling out a FAFSA or doing my taxes. and i thought voting was just as complicated. both are really simple and don't require much effort. voting doesn't even take very long if you go at the right time. my father was in and out...5 minutes on his lunch break. i got there super early and waited about an hour and a half because other people were trying to get it over with b4 they went to work, like i was. but i had my ipod and was able to get in a good hour nap lol.

anyway, there's millions of reasons why people dont vote, but at the end of the day its about educating yourself about the politics and the issues that we have and educating others who dont seem to care one way or another, because voting is super important. the focus here is EDUCATING others, not trying to impose your own ideas on others. a few people don't care and never will care no matter what...but others just need some kind of push in the right direction, whether it be draggin their lazy asses to the polls or having a discussion with someone who has no idea what's going on in the world so they CAN develop and opinion, and everything in between. 
   

I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!

Not to believe everything everyone tells you...and especially not everything you hear. Ya'll need to get into the habit of focusing on the source because the source is the only thing that's reliable.

STOP BELIEVING EVERYTHING YOU FUKKIN HEAR!

that's wack of yall to pass judgment over things that you hear that you're not even 100% sure about!

DONT BELIEVE THE HYPE!

its none of your business but you'll be respected more if u just ask the source. if the source says it's none of your business, there's no need for further discussion...it's NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!

omarion is the shit.